New Beginnings

I was laid off from my job last Friday. I was okay. I even went to wisdom weekend 4 in Ft. Lauderdale. Yesterday though I was wiped out. I guess it hit me. Grief can be draining. I realize though it is a good thing. I wanted to do something different. Lately though I had been more positive about my job. I really don't know where to start looking. I am in the brainstorming phase. I realize this is a time for gathering information and letting others contribute to me by their care,suggestions etc. I will be gentle with myself. I am still very tired today. I also have a sore throat coming on. I know this is how my body reacts after upsetting news. How do I transform that and make that a thing of the past. Declare it I guess. IN the past I would get sore throats when I had upsetting things happen.Now I know I am healthy. I at least get six weeks severance pay so I will get a paycheck until Dec. Also no more on call YAY. I will be working more on my creativity coaching program and perhaps writing books. There are endless possibilities
WOOOHOOO

Happy Labor Day

It is a sunny day so I probably will spend some time in the pool.
A new month has begun. I feel like a new month is a chance for new beginnings.I am starting to reviw the chakra's. I went to a chakra dance on Saturday. It was alot of fun. It got me thinking about the chakrs's.I decided to focus on one a day. I even found a website that gives me an email lesson a day on the chakra and it has links to other sites that have meditations etc. Today is root chakra-grounding,belonging,survival. Red. base of the the spine. Meditation to do-feel self rooted-imagine roots running from feet to the earth,imagine red. Can also wear red.
Tonight I am going to help out with the Obama campaign. I am a little nervous as I have never done that before. It should be interesting
Happy September-Happy Labor Day
Debbie

Wednesday's ramblings

Today went okay.I am looking for another job but sometimes I feel guilty for doing so.Today a lady was so grateful that there is a Survivors of Suicide group for her family member to attend after a suicide. She was expressing relief but she really acknowledged me for seeing the need and offering it. ALso some of the people I meet with are so appreciative of me. I feel I am letting them down. But it is time for me to find a job where I can make a living,feel secure about,don't have to watch over my shoulder or worry about how many hours of productivity I put in. I also don't want to do on-call anymore. It is time for a change.

Pleasant Dreams

Well I am getting sleepy but thought I would blog as I haven't for a few days. Not sure if anyone reads this or not anyway. Work was okay today. I hadn't been to work since Tuesday morning. Due to Tropical Storm Fay-I had Tuesday afternoon,Wednesday and Thursday off. I am off on Friday's. I had a God/Nature Induced retreat from my everyday life. NOt as nice as my retreat in Santa Fe. I was really drained on Wednesday. THursday was better and I got to go outside for a little while. ALso got out for a little bit on Friday. I missed the sun. It was a beautiful Sunny day today. I had a visit with a man today whose wife died last month. Their only son died from cancer several years ago. Yet this man has a strong faith and a kind,caring nature. He also has alot of friends. It amazes me what challenges people go through. Some are able to cope and maintain a positive attitude. Others let the experience embitter them and they drudge through there lives. I try to be positive but I know there are times I whine to myself. The positive people I meet inspire me. Perhaps they are God's messengers-they are there to help me and not the other way around. HMMMM. Maybe I had it all backwards all along. I wasn't called to do grief work to help others but for others to help me-to prepare me for life's challenges. It is a stepping stone to whatever is next in my life.

A rainy Thursday

I can't believe how much rain we are getting.I Have been in my home since noon on Tuesday. Tropical Storm Fay is just putting rain and rain into Brevard county. The energy of the storm is irritating me. I have never noticed the energy before. Maybe I am more attuned. No work today again. I could be grateful that I have time to catch up on things but my energy level is zapped. I need Sunlight!!!!lol.I can relate now to people who have seasonal affective disorder. Well there seems to be a few more cars driving on my street so maybe this afternoon I can venture out somewhere. Today is Graycie's first birthday. My parents and I sang Happy Birthday to her but she didnt know what we were doing. I will give her a can of cat food later. She just likes dry food but maybe a meatier brand of cat food she will like.

Friday morning

I slept in today. Only day I have to sleep in a little. Not sure what I will do today. Friday is my day off. All kinds of possibilities to choose from. I sometimes feel as if my days are just one thing after another so it is good to have no set schedule occasionally.I find it hard to believe that it is already August. I really enjoy the summer. I don't have much to write right now-maybe the coffee hasn't sunk in. lol MY cat is lying on the floor watching me type. She is gray and her name is Graycie. She will be a year old this month. I brought her home when she was a month old. I was at a Landmark course in Orlando.The instructor found these three kittens but the mother got away. I fell in love with the gray kittie right away. She is alot of fun and follows me alot. now she is sleeping on the bed behind the computer.Hmmm a nap-naw it is too early-lol

Saturday morning

It is a beautiful Saturday morning in Rockledge. I am sipping coffee and on the computer. Not sure what I will do today. I will read in the pool. It is so relaxing-I have a chair I float in. Contemplating going to the gym some time today. It has been so long since I have been. I dread going back but I will. I know how important exercise is. I feel it in my knees when I don't exercise. Also may go to a movie with some friends.Possibly go to the box store too plus I have tons of things to work on-including a book report for my spiritual direction program. Today is full of possibilities -what will it bring. What will your day bring?
Deborah

Santa Fe

I haven't been blogging as I have been in Santa Fe. I returned Saturday night. I have been busy getting used to being back in Florida. I love Santa Fe. I love New Mexico.The scenery is so different from Florida. I plan on moving to New Mexico someday. I don't want to move now as my parents are elderly and I don't know how much time they have left. I will put some pics on here soon.
Deb

on-call

I am on-call today.So far no calls. Today at work I attended our monthly staff meeting,had one visit and it was my supervisory visit for my review. The person supervising me said I did an excellent job. Then I had a zillion phone calls-actually I was surprised I only did about 25 or so. Now it is storming. I definitely do not want to go out on a call. I dislike oncall but it is an in order to. In order to work where I am I have to do oncall. I only have to do it two to three times a month but I would rather not have to do it at all. Once upon a time when I started working in the grief department we didn't have too. It was heavenly. I only have 13 more hours to go.
Debbie

Nightie night

I am sleepy. I just got home from the landmark seminar. I realize many in order to's I do. In order to look good,in order to be liked,in order to stay out of trouble,in order to avoid conflict,in order to feel good,in order to be happy,in order to have people like me. Sheesh. Its like walking on egg shells sometime. I just want to be free of all that-
So why did I start blogging-in order to do something different,in order to gather some of my thoughts,in order to share myself,in order tp express myself in a new and different ways. In order to have fun.
Ok I guess I am rambling a little
I am going to sleep now

Good afternoon

I survived several meetings today. One meeting we have every Tuesday really numbs my brain. We have to listen to people read what everyone has written on a piece of paper about a patient. It is a two hour meeting. I guess it could be worse by being longer. I had lunch with my friend Ann today. Soup bar and salad. Healthy until you eat several bowls of soup. It is kind of gray outside. I will be heading for Orlando in a few minutes for the Landmark Relationship seminar. I don't feel like going but I said I would. Usually when I just go-it turns out to be a great session
Debbie

Good Morning

I have my coffee in hand. okay not exactly at this moment because I am typing. I had trouble sleeping because my bedroom fan was noisy. I finally fell asleep though. I have a cat named Graycie-she was sleeping in my room. She likes to be near me but not too close. Just checked my email. I will now go spend time in prayer,meditation,journaling and spiritual readings. It sets the tone of the day. I have also created my day via a yahoo group I started for Landmark grads. I am creating being a receiver as well as a giver. As I give so shall I receive.I work for hospice as a grief support specialist. Today I have meetings and phone calls. Tonight Landmark Seminar. I will write more later
Have a great day -whoever is reading this. :)
Debbie

First one

HI
This is the first time I have blogged. I am kind of sleepy right now but I will type a little. I just turned fifty on July 16. I feel alot younger than that. Most people think I look younger. I am single. I haven't met Mr. Right yet but haven't given up. I work as a counselor. I like to do alot of different things. So blogging is a new thing I am trying now. I hope to have interesting things to write. We shall see.
Night
Debbie