Wednesday's ramblings

Today went okay.I am looking for another job but sometimes I feel guilty for doing so.Today a lady was so grateful that there is a Survivors of Suicide group for her family member to attend after a suicide. She was expressing relief but she really acknowledged me for seeing the need and offering it. ALso some of the people I meet with are so appreciative of me. I feel I am letting them down. But it is time for me to find a job where I can make a living,feel secure about,don't have to watch over my shoulder or worry about how many hours of productivity I put in. I also don't want to do on-call anymore. It is time for a change.

Pleasant Dreams

Well I am getting sleepy but thought I would blog as I haven't for a few days. Not sure if anyone reads this or not anyway. Work was okay today. I hadn't been to work since Tuesday morning. Due to Tropical Storm Fay-I had Tuesday afternoon,Wednesday and Thursday off. I am off on Friday's. I had a God/Nature Induced retreat from my everyday life. NOt as nice as my retreat in Santa Fe. I was really drained on Wednesday. THursday was better and I got to go outside for a little while. ALso got out for a little bit on Friday. I missed the sun. It was a beautiful Sunny day today. I had a visit with a man today whose wife died last month. Their only son died from cancer several years ago. Yet this man has a strong faith and a kind,caring nature. He also has alot of friends. It amazes me what challenges people go through. Some are able to cope and maintain a positive attitude. Others let the experience embitter them and they drudge through there lives. I try to be positive but I know there are times I whine to myself. The positive people I meet inspire me. Perhaps they are God's messengers-they are there to help me and not the other way around. HMMMM. Maybe I had it all backwards all along. I wasn't called to do grief work to help others but for others to help me-to prepare me for life's challenges. It is a stepping stone to whatever is next in my life.

A rainy Thursday

I can't believe how much rain we are getting.I Have been in my home since noon on Tuesday. Tropical Storm Fay is just putting rain and rain into Brevard county. The energy of the storm is irritating me. I have never noticed the energy before. Maybe I am more attuned. No work today again. I could be grateful that I have time to catch up on things but my energy level is zapped. I need Sunlight!!!!lol.I can relate now to people who have seasonal affective disorder. Well there seems to be a few more cars driving on my street so maybe this afternoon I can venture out somewhere. Today is Graycie's first birthday. My parents and I sang Happy Birthday to her but she didnt know what we were doing. I will give her a can of cat food later. She just likes dry food but maybe a meatier brand of cat food she will like.

Friday morning

I slept in today. Only day I have to sleep in a little. Not sure what I will do today. Friday is my day off. All kinds of possibilities to choose from. I sometimes feel as if my days are just one thing after another so it is good to have no set schedule occasionally.I find it hard to believe that it is already August. I really enjoy the summer. I don't have much to write right now-maybe the coffee hasn't sunk in. lol MY cat is lying on the floor watching me type. She is gray and her name is Graycie. She will be a year old this month. I brought her home when she was a month old. I was at a Landmark course in Orlando.The instructor found these three kittens but the mother got away. I fell in love with the gray kittie right away. She is alot of fun and follows me alot. now she is sleeping on the bed behind the computer.Hmmm a nap-naw it is too early-lol

Saturday morning

It is a beautiful Saturday morning in Rockledge. I am sipping coffee and on the computer. Not sure what I will do today. I will read in the pool. It is so relaxing-I have a chair I float in. Contemplating going to the gym some time today. It has been so long since I have been. I dread going back but I will. I know how important exercise is. I feel it in my knees when I don't exercise. Also may go to a movie with some friends.Possibly go to the box store too plus I have tons of things to work on-including a book report for my spiritual direction program. Today is full of possibilities -what will it bring. What will your day bring?
Deborah

Santa Fe

I haven't been blogging as I have been in Santa Fe. I returned Saturday night. I have been busy getting used to being back in Florida. I love Santa Fe. I love New Mexico.The scenery is so different from Florida. I plan on moving to New Mexico someday. I don't want to move now as my parents are elderly and I don't know how much time they have left. I will put some pics on here soon.
Deb