June 14,2010

Happy Flag Day

This morning I awoke with a sense of fear. I knew what it was about. Last week the agency where I had been developing my counseling practice sent a fax that of June 21 there would be no more counseling at the agency just medication management. So I am having to find another location or start my own practice.Last week I was working on getting a very part time position which I did get contigent on my passing my drug test. I don't do drugs so I am just waiting to hear about the start date. But today is Monday and this will be my last week at the agency so the fear was about who to I contact,what do I do. Trying to figure it out myself. I wasn't in panic mode just a sense of fear. I told myself I would journal about it and decided to get up,pee and have breakfast. When I went back to journal I remembered something I had seen in Jill Badonski's book Awe-manac yesterday(I peeked at the days to come) about Flag day and a suggestio to make a flag for yourself. That caught my interest yesterday. So when I was journaling I started to draw my flag. It didn't take long but I liked it. It has seven stars,a chakra pinwheel with ribbons flying in the wind,my cat Graycie,sunshine and myself open to the universe with my hands outstretched and my face lifted up to the sun. I have been taking a landmark course called Living Passionately and my purpose is to dance with the Divine and celebrate life in all its Glory. After drawing my flag-I felt peaceful-no longer in fear. I didn't feel the need to journal about it. I continued to do my prayers,quiet time and some journaling. When I was finished I had a list of things to do-that filled my heart and made sense to my as what I needed to do today. This morning I saw how creativity can shift me whether it is drawing,dancing or singing,that I have within me divine guidance and I am always led to the next step.